Wistfulness of

Heartache

I could see by Jared expression, although he may have offered, he was doing it more out of politeness sake, and I answered,  not doing a very good job of hiding my  own true feelings of distress, “No, thank you. I think I can manage,” I then went on to ask, with the last bit of hope I could muster, but also knowing in my heart I was only letting myself in for another letdown. “Is there a small chance I’ll get to see you before you leave?”

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He answered, trying very hard to let me down easy. “I am really busy today. But I will see what I can do.”

I knew there was no way I could now hide the disappointment from showing up on my face than when it did. Jared likewise could not hide his own feelings of regret. Yet he still held on fast, and with this as the end result, I then said, giving up and in, “I guess I had better be going, and if I don’t get to see you before you leave, I wish you a safe trip, and I hope to see you when you get back.”

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Once this was said between us, I had my hand on the doorknob, and taking a pause before I went altogether, I stopped myself short, and in so doing, I turned back round to look back at Jared and said, holding back the tears, “I’m going to be missing you.”

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Lily’s wistful heart longing for a simpler time is deeply sorrowed in contemplation in the here and now living in the “Mayhem” that is the Biblical “End of Days.” Her fragile emotions heightened by the upheaval embarking on her relationship with Jared. Leaves Lily “Shell-Shocked” as she agonizes over the latest conflict between her and Jared a trusted and dearest confidant. 

The once “Beautiful” world of just a moment ago swiftly passes into a nostalgic wisp of a memory. Leaving Lily in a present state of “Woe,” to which there looks to be no end in sight to her restlessness of spirit.

Reflecting on the blessings of her heart’s desires of “Hearth and Home,” Lily is beginning to feel destined to be only an observer of loves divine splendors which seemingly manage to always drift just beyond her reach.

On this evening there is no reprieve to lessen Lily’s heartache within, and that which never fails to rise to the occasion in her distress is the enemy that “Old Serpent,” come to taunt Lily with spitefully spoken words of past hurts from the “Days Gone By.”

Each passing minute feels a lifetime ago as Lily’s wholesome dreams fade away into the obscurity of time, and in her lonesomeness. History once more is come to repeat itself as Lily ponders why it is the dearest yearnings of her heart lie that which is just beyond her constraint.

Lily’s preponderance brings her to a determination to raise above her loneliness and in doing so she reaches out to her Father God knowing within the Lord’s loving embrace lies  the reassuring promises of His own good pleasure  as it is written Luke 12:32, “Fear not, little flock; For it is your Father’s  good pleasure to give you the kingdom.”

And to live life more abundantly in the triumph that is in Christ Jesus as it is written in John 10:10, “The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” Amen.

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CREDITS

Holy Scriptures, King James Bible

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